A Time is Here before the New Year
If You have moments of melancholy during this time of the season, prayerfully this will soothe you, as it does me.
For at least the last 15 years, betwixt December 25 and January 1, this has been a time of reflection and introspection for me. It also seems during this time, something will present itself to me that may bring up memories that have caused a little (or a lot) of pain. During this time, there are experiences of emotional sadness (tears even) and a melancholy, subduedness that I can identify as having felt so many times, more than once.
This year and now at this time is reflection and introspection and yes, this morning came the tears. Asking the Creator, Yeshua and the Holy Spirit to guide me, I was lead to Matthew Chapters 6 & 7.
During my read, a few verses resonated in my heart, interpreted by my mind.
6:22. Don't score keep on others.
6:28. Don't put so much stock in worrisome, anxious thought.
6:33. Before any thought about anything or anybody, go within and receive the Creator's council.
7:7. All I have to do is ask...always go to the Source.
7:12. However I want people (humanity) to love me, I will love them. However I want people to think of me, I will think of them in the same way.
7:14. Although it may not be the view of the populace, I will follow the Spiritual Path that is inside my heart.
7:16. I do not need to guess motivations of others; I only need to trust that we do what we are and see through the lens of my single eye (6:22)
7:25. Whether rain, storm or wind, through it all, keeping my heart and mind (as best I can) centered on Faith and Trust in God within me, I will stand firm cause I'm on solid ground.
All in all, I call this period a time of purging. Clearing out my within, making way for new Goodness to enter. And after reflecting for today, summing it all up for me the answer is:
I'm not asking to change anything or anybody extrinsic of me. I only ask that I am changed within - change me. Change how I think about a person, a thing - in that I no longer think
in a way to bring me pain. Love You.